Jumat, 07 Juli 2017

Proportion of Life

It is something.
To have the ability to feel happiness in someone’s laughter,
To have the ability to feel pain in someone’s suffering,
Because life has its proportion.
That is what people called, the balances.



We have all been there,
The world againsts us,
The circumstances blame us,
The closests disappear one by one,
The dreams faded slowly,
We get hurt easily with all the little things like school, movies, books, strangers, and the one that we love the most.
We start to hate every single thing that distracts us,
Like the bitterness that we made in our own coffee,
The weather that feels so cold which can freeze our body and the next second feels so hot which can burn our soul,
The rowdiness of all the things around us,
Even,
Seeing ourself in the mirror is one of the thing that we hate.
We pour, pour, and pour everything that we feel until we realize how empty we are.
And we punish ourself for every loss.

We think the only way that could end all of this is slipping away,
And so we can get rid of all the things that hurt us.
And soon when we go back,
We realize, it all means nothing.

As human beings, it is okay to feel the pain.
Because the pain demands to be felt.
The world seems so unfair to us but we know it also does to another.
Apparently, we are just a dust within the galaxy that looking for satisfaction, value of life, and happiness.
Some are finding their happiness in foods.
Some are finding their happiness in books.
Some are finding their happiness in grades.
Some are finding their happiness in make ups.
Some are finding their happiness in business.
Some are finding their happiness in nature.
Some are finding their happiness in the sweetness of their coffee.
Some are finding their happiness in someone’s laughter.
Some are finding their happiness in relationship with God, family, and the one that they love.
The truth is, there are so many ways to be happy, we only have to choose our own way.
But in the other side, they give up when the things didn’t work.
So let me tell you about life’s paradox, you will get hurt for doing the right things and you will get hurt if you don’t. So, it is your choice.

Sometimes we envy to see someone’s perfect life, yet we forgot that perfect is just a word.
Sometimes we hate ourself for not being good enough, yet we forgot we already did our best.
Sometimes we think this world gives us so much pain, yet we forgot we got the lessons.
Sometimes we feel everyone avoids us, yet we forgot how to come closer.
Sometimes we fear too much about the things, yet we forgot how to believe.
And sometimes we forgot, we are all just human.

Try to accept things
Try to make a peace with the past
Try to learn the mistakes
Try to let everything goes by the time
Try to forgive others
Try to bring happiness
Try to share a smile
Try to pray for people
And, try to love ourself first.

And after a while
You learn
That you really can endure
That you are really strong
That you really do have worth
And you learn and you learn
With every good bye you learn.

I write to tell you this,
This vapidity of life needs to be peppered, just relax and feel its sensation.
No, it is not forever to feel the sensation, it is just for while. Do not be scared.
This vapidity of life also needs the sweetness, you must be like this one.
But hey, no, it is not forever. Do not let yourself be lulled.
Everything in this world is temporary.
Sometimes we are in the dark, but it is okay because there will be a light.
And sometimes we are in the bright side, but hey watch out.
In fact, it is always in proportion.
So, when you think the things don’t work out like what you want, it will work out for what you need. You just have to trust that it will.
And that is how we heal.

Minggu, 15 Januari 2017

What is Love?

What comes on your mind when you hear “Love”?
It’s gonna be so cheesy, but what’s coming up from my mind is him.
He- I don’t really know who is he, but I do believe that there are some things in this universe that just fit. I don’t know if we are meant to be or not. But for now, I trust him.



They said he is such a good man, and I didn’t give any shit about it because I didn't even know him at that time.
Me- was in a step of healing. Healing from everything that's broken.

Then suddenly, everything is turning so different.
He- brings the colours into my life.
He- becomes the most beautiful thing that I’ve ever seen.
He- is different.
And I adore different things.
Me- almost forgot how it felt to be loved and to be in love and suddenly he came and changed everything.
He jokes,
He laughs,
He smiles,
He shouts,
He calms,
He complains,
Everything that he does makes me want to pull him closer.
It is like everything that he does is wonderful.
He is kind of person that everyone wants to date, he is kind of person that cold outside but has a warmest heart that you’ll ever know, he is kind of person that will hug you when you’re in pain.
He is kind of person-
He is kind of person-
He is kind of person-
Man, you are my kind of person.


He reminds me of all the gentle things in life,
like tea when it's cold,
and big sweaters to sleep in.
He reminds me of all the safe things in life,
like a hand to hold,
and a shoulder to lean on.
He reminds me of all the reasons to take a chance,
like when things seem out of reach,
and a place seems so far away.
He reminds me of all the beautiful things in life,
like the sky when the sun sets,
and the way his face lights up when he smiles.


He reminds me of how love tasted, he teaches me how to be independent woman, he tells me what goods in life.
And,
I am never sure whether he is the lighthouse or the storm.
But for now, if you ask me What is Love?
I will gladly answer; Love, is him.

because me is me

Hello guys!
Actually, I made this blog just for some random posts. I was thinking that it could be the best place where can I express what I feel.
So, me- just a woman who believes that everything comes up from your mind and you have to set it positively.
This year, my age will turn into nineteenth. Dude, I hate to grow older :(
I do love God, my family, my friends, my neighbors, my teachers, and any mys.
I am so thankful for everyhting that I have, I am so thankful for living in this world and having so many graces that can not be counted.
And, I really want to be a woman who can handles everything on her own, I want to make my anger so expensive that no one can afford it, and I want to make my happiness so cheap that people can almost get it for free.
So guys, that is it what I want to share with you. Aaand for reminder, do not forget to be the reason someone smiles today! Have a great day, all!